Monday, February 28, 2005
Yet another day of pain....
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Guess what? still pain I'm so excited!!!
Dammit!!! I need help I need the pain to go away!!!! and I need thie soon or I don't know what I am gonna do!!!
Friday, February 25, 2005
ok another wonderful day full of..PAIN!!!!
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Things could not be much worse.....
My legs decided that they wanna hurt a horrible pain that I have never felt before. From what I can gather it is nerve pain and man does it suck big time. It is burning pain that I just can't even begin to explain. My feet are sooo cold almost like that are "dead" and it is scary. My biggest fear is losing my legs...not being able to take care of my kids not being able to take care of myself. It is tearing me apart thinking what could be in the future....This MS shit sucks. I have a hard time when things are rough not thinking "why me?" What did I do to deserve this curse??? I can't even imagine what I could have done that is so horrible that warrants this disease. I know I have heard it a million and one times " God does not give us more than we can handle"...how is everyone so sure of this?? Because I dod not know if I am sure of this!!!! and "This too shall pass" and " god will see you through it" so God please help me to get through this give me the strength the will power, see me through this please!!!!
Friday, February 18, 2005
ok more bitching.....
Well if I did forgive me for what I am about to do....
Ok so this is the definition of truth:
the state of being the case : FACT (2) : the body of real things, events, and facts : ACTUALITY
and this is the definition of a lie:
1 : to make an untrue statement with intent to deceive2 : to create a false or misleading impression
Ok these definitions are the same ones that I have held to be true my entire life with the exception of some of my childhood (hey we all lied then so shut up!!!)
So can someone tell me why some unnamed people lie all the time and tell the truth never???? Why do they fell the need to lie all the time??? I mean some of the lies are so ridiculous I can't believe that anyone believes the bullshit!!!! The thing about lies is they are used to protect you for whatever reason but do people stop to think how deeply they are hurting others?? or how they themselves are at the point of no trust from anyone in their lives??? Can someone please tell me why??? and the lies that are being told are so god damn stupid it just bothers me lies like how long you have been someone's friend..or what did u do today?? why lie about things like this??? I mean what is the point?? who ar eu protecting by lying about things like these???
Ok so I am not saying that I don't lie.because I do (so do u)
but I lie to protect someone (usually myself) ok I never said that I wasn't selfish either..but my lies are like to my sister so she can't take my daughter because she is not the best caregiver things like that...or if a friend asks how do these jeans look ya know???
but the people I am talking about they are doing damage to others severly and I hate sitting back and watching the pain that they are causing...especially when I can help to prevent more pain form happening...but for now I have to keep my mouth shut!!!! this is not fair not at all!!!!
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
what is trust anymore???
so here is the definition of trust:
assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something b : one in which confidence is placed
yeah right never like that for me..but oh well I am definitely a happier person without anyone extra in my life..all I want and need is my hubby and beautiful kids...oh yeah my Mommy...just done with everyone
Monday, February 07, 2005
Something funny and a lil more....
And I had something to do this weekend whihc is the first time in a long time I might add. My friend Nicci came over with her new husband. I have not seen her in over a year she lived like an hour or better away. Now she lives 10 minutes away. It is nice to know she is closer now. We used to be inseperable. Maybe we will get that way again. They were here for hours ate dinner with us..then our husbands decided they needed to get drunk that was funny. Last night we went to my hubby's friends and played cards that was fun too I got to see their brand new baby. He is so adorable too. and so tiny he is only a week old. So I am whooped from all the excitement I had this weekend!!!!
Saturday, February 05, 2005
A whole lotta nothing
"A lot of money is tainted--it taint yours and it taint mine"
" For every ounce of truth there is a pound of lies"
" they say you should do twice as much listening as you do talking that is why you have 2 ears and 1 mouth"
K guess that is the end of my stupidity today!!!!